卍凡居田园♀生命在呼吸间♂

证严法师曾说过一段话：原谅曾经伤害过你的人，也要做一个不轻易被伤害的人。很多的时候，我们需要给自己的生命留下一点空隙，就像两车之间的安全距离，一点缓冲的余地，可以随时调整自己，进退有据。生活的空间，须藉清理挪减而留出；心灵的空间，则经思考开悟而扩展。打桥牌时要把我们手中所握有的这副牌，不论好坏，都要把它打到淋漓尽致；人生亦然，重要的不是发生了什么事，而是我们处理它的方法和态度，假如我们转身面向阳光，就不可能陷身在阴影里。

Saturday, 11 January 2014

My 1st job in Medical Sales

After 4 months joined in the medical sales line, there is a lot of feeling rolling in my stomach. First of all, medical sales really is a very challenging and independent job as I'm a fresh grads. There is totally a different world from study life. Don't talk about medical first. In sales world, it's actually is very complicated. A purely heart is started to be polluted by rubbishes. Being a sales person, might need to wear a mask. It always very competitive when you work together with people who is same position with you, even selling the same things with you. And I can see that, some of sales person are full of ego and jealousy when seeing other's successfulness. I always adviced to be alert and careful working in sales life. However, there is still got alot of good people de. Feeling appreaciate for those kind people who appear in my career. Support me in my career path. For myself joining sales purpose, I love a flexible job. I want to train myself to face more people, and become more confidence. I also wish to train myself speaking English. Of course, doing sales is want to earn more money, to hit target as well. But my main point is to add value in my own. Moreover, choosing medical sales is because I want to be first line in helping people. But after walk through this few months, I found out helping people only occupied 5-10%. When you need sales, you will find many ways to achieve it. Sometimes there is too many kinds of people in this world, current condition make them need to do so, a fake person , to grab any opportunity in front. What can do is playing psychology between each other. Achievement is such an important things to show that yourselves are capable and suitable to be in this company, to make yourselves valuable. However, within this short period I've learned a lot from the people around me. From don't know how to detail until get some good feed back in role play. And my note book is full of Northen maps! Hoho. This is a great and amazing learning process. Thanks from the guiding from my direct superior and my aunty. Of course my collegues as well. They just like catalyst in the job, motivate and activate your passion towards the job.I've learn the way to talk, learn from mistakes, and learn to be an intelligent person. This society is not simple as what I think. Sometimes, the feeling rolling is just like, is it myself have to become fake and greedy also? I'm scared. And I always tell myself, I have to believe, believe in Karma, the law of cause and effect. Doing the right things, to be knowledgeable, to be professional in a job. To remind myself always believing in the secret of universe.

Luckily, I have a teacher, who ever appear in my life when I need him. He showed me what we are suffering now. Being with those we dislike, not getting what we want. Thanks Buddha. You have rescued me too many times, from doing bad things. And I always trust in Your teaching and guiding. By Your's teaching, I have walk in a correct path way. To attain my dreams, travelling all around the world, while not leaving Karma. I also wish to let more people know about Your's teaching, to guide them to the true path way too. Buddha, do give me more power, more energy to continue my career and my bright future. And for everyone, to live in happiness and peaceful nature.

Noble Eightfold Path

1. Right View. The right way to think about life is to see the world through the eyes of the Buddha--with wisdom and compassion.
2. Right Thought. We are what we think. Clear and kind thoughts build good, strong characters.
3. Right Speech. By speaking kind and helpful words, we are respected and trusted by everyone.
4. Right Conduct. No matter what we say, others know us from the way we behave. Before we criticize others, we should first see what we do ourselves.
5. Right Livelihood. This means choosing a job that does not hurt others. The Buddha said, "Do not earn your living by harming others. Do not seek happiness by making others unhappy."
6. Right Effort. A worthwhile life means doing our best at all times and having good will toward others. This also means not wasting effort on things that harm ourselves and others.
7. Right Mindfulness. This means being aware of our thoughts, words, and deeds.
8. Right Concentration. Focus on one thought or object at a time. By doing this, we can be quiet and attain true peace of mind.

"The kind of seed sown

will produce that kind of fruit.

Those who do good will reap good results.

Those who do evil will reap evil results.

If you carefully plant a good seed,

You will joyfully gather good fruit."

Dhammapada

Company Annual Dinner

My 1st Annual Dinner 2014 - Pyjamas Party in Epplus Group
Penang Minions' Team

Thursday, 11 July 2013

静七禅修心得

终于，在大学的最后一个学期，我鼓起勇气报名参加了这个密集禅修课程。平时都觉得自己的静坐很差，静不下心来，不是腿痛就是妄念纷飞，怎么学都学不会。可是想了想，再不捉住这次的因缘，恐怕下次没有这个机会了。因为平时太过忙于学业，一直都没有努力练腿功，去到那里时还挺恐慌的。那时候自己也匆匆忙忙地，从吉隆坡赶回槟城再赶去太平佛教会。自己的心很粗很粗。平时都靠外在的财色名食睡来让自己放松，以为这样就是放松，原来并不是。这次的禅修课程真的让我获益良多。

这是第二次去到太平佛教会了，又是一组不同的因缘了。报到之后，监香给我们做场地介绍和分作务小组。在封堂前组长给我们分配了各自的清理工作，之后大家就要靠默契来合作了。师父为我们分好了静坐的位子后，大家就静语，七天的密集课程终于开始了。每次来到新的团队，心情就特别紧绷，加上这次是静语，让我提起更高的警觉性。所以，每天凌晨监香还没敲钟，我就会自动起身，一点、两点、三点，终于四点了，可以去洗刷了。这是因果吧，夜晚睡眠品质太差，做早课时就特别昏沉了，念没两句身体就东摇西晃的，头脑妄念升起，何时才可以大休息啊！凌晨静坐是也特别难熬，一部心经怎么念也念不完。惭愧不已。

参与这次课程后，才深深发现自己平时的静坐，并没有把功夫用上，而是一味的在抒发自己的疲惫和压力而已。真正的方法还没运用上去。刚开始静坐，感觉上腿真的是快折断了，好痛！我身边的人看起来都很厉害，非常镇定，而我却在那边挣扎。腿痛让我惊慌失措，这股可怕的负面情绪连续泛起。自己的心跳声越来越夸张，有时候痛得全身冒汗了。那时候自己使用数息观，越数越窒息，越数越控制呼吸，导致呼吸不协调。那时候开始有点烦恼了，有时候干脆让妄念生起，逃避这些痛苦。

小参见了师父，师父说我太紧绷，没有放松自己，才会不断控制呼吸。过后，我不敢再用数息观了，换上了慈悲观。那时，感觉非常好，呼吸顺畅，感觉到一股正面能量了。终于可以坐上一支香的一半时间。可是自己还是很放不下，为什么数息观这么难？在课程里，师父的开示的确帮了我很多。慈悲幽默的师父，谈起佛法可是让人觉得津津有味。很感恩师父的一句话：每一个呼吸都是当下的，唯一一个。这句话让我学会了数息观，不再控制呼吸，而且感觉呼吸是如此美妙和平静！自己静坐时也遇到一个问题，就是常以为自己在做同样的事情很闷，一直念一直数而已，有时候还会睡着。可是实际上事情并没有在重复。之前的因缘已经灭了，当下又是新的因缘生起。每一次抱着这种态度，就不会觉得很无聊了。师父说要新鲜的“鲜”，不要“显”啊！就好像每天起身，又是美好的一天。感觉像是一样可是却又不一样，呼吸也一样。过去了就灭了，没有什么事情是值得耿耿于怀的。脑海生起的种种妄念，也只不过是自己在编故事，过去的影幕不可能再一模一样的重演。

在拜佛时，每次眼泪都是在眼眶里打转。自己是多么的有福报，可以再如此舒适的环境里面修学佛法，多么可贵。人身难得今已得，佛法难闻今已闻，有时候还要在禅堂里懈怠，真的很惭愧。当初佛陀舍弃了自己的一切，为了寻找真理救度众生，还有历经一代又一代的祖师保护和传承佛法，我们至今才有机会学习宇宙真理。如今的自己六根具足，生在佛法旺盛的地方，更应该把握机会去修行。一拜又一拜，赞叹佛陀的功德，一拜又一拜，忏悔过去所造的恶业。放下我慢心，把最尊贵的额头磕在地上。每一个缓慢的动作，让我慢慢的收摄自己的心。我们的心一层一层的被妄念包围，越来越厚，越来越沉重。只有用心禅修，把它一层层撕开，清净自在。

往昔所造诸恶业，皆由无始贪嗔痴，从身语意之所生，一切我今皆忏悔。

在打七期间，自己最害怕的就是静行。在慢步静行时，自己的心很浮躁，妄念一大堆，无法专注。可是还好看到的是自己一天比一天进步了一点点。在快步进行时也一样。第一次的时候还真的跑到上气不接下气的，师父还不停的说：“快！快！”我心里真想说师父，够了啦，我跑不动了！身体越来越笨重，呼吸越来越沉重了，连脚都不想提起来。那时候师父继续说：“快~快~快！！你们这些健全的还不跑快些，有些人要这双腿都没有！快~快~！！”我突然被这句话骂醒了，突然有力气跑了。原来自己一直是需要被挨骂才能够醒过来。自己已经很幸福了，还要求些什么。打七的其中一天，隔壁学校办了party，一大早到下午都在狂欢、歌唱。那时候的我真的极度痛苦，无法清净。这时妄念又生起咯！他们唱的马来歌真的很好笑，又走音的，然后就自己在静坐时傻笑。可见得，外在的因缘是多么的容易把我的心牵走。禅修时候如此，那回到现实生活时不是更可怕了吗？嗯，法义上是懂一点点，可是实践的更少。禅修就是把心的功能发挥出来，还得继续用功呢！

到了第三天，我的腿还是超级疼。那时候在想，大家都说前几天会比较难过，过了第三天就好很多了，但我还是痛得不得了。第一支香还好，过后就越来越差，心里有点不平衡。然后，自己也越来越懒得做松身运动了，感恩师父和监香都有一直在提醒我们这些运动都很重要。直至第六天，终于可以舒服的坐满每支香，脚也没这么痛了。这应该是共业吧，分享心得后才发现很多人在最后两天都做得很好。这股能量真的会影响身边的人的。也很庆幸自己可以把这个静坐的方法带回到生活去。

很感恩师父的教诲，感恩监香的用心，帮我们驱蚊，照顾我们的身心。也很感恩这群佛友造就了这次的因缘。虽然种种的过程很艰辛，但是我们都走过来了！愿我们在学佛路上继续精进用功，修福修慧，圆满人生。

道听合十